An Apology

I apologize to my few dedicated, loving, beautiful, sexy readers. I feel as though I have been alternating weak posts with poor posts recently (except my letter to dumb chicks, that was a truly beautiful work of art.. in my expert opinion). I have been more focused on "self medicating" the chemical imbalances in my brain. This is hard to do considering I can't take a piece of my brain and test for the levels of various chemicals. Chemicals that I know nothing about. If I did take a piece of my brain I wouldn't know how or what to test for. I am a lot of things, but I'm no chemist. Maybe one day.. I can dream, and I do dream, and I dream big. One day I will be a chemist and cut out a piece of brain and test the shit out of it. I am not chemist yet so this is more a trial and error period until I find that perfect balance where I am happy, carefree, and still somewhat functional. It's a difficult place to find, but I think it is an important life goal. Unfortunately, this does not coincide with my life's other passion, ripping it up the streets of greater Boston in Blue Steel. I refuse to drive while under the influence of anything other than love, the love between man and car. I'm not stupid.. yet.

I am not trying to excuse my weak posts recently, but I am trying to excuse them. Whatever that means. What am I on right now? I'm not sure. I've abandoned coffee. This may prove to be a mistake. I am seeking stronger better alternatives. Any suggestions? I read somewhere that dark chocolate is supposed to lower blood pressure so I'm giving it a try. My blood pressure and cholesterol is well documented, by my doctor, as being rather high. I am more interested in seeking "fun" and "illegal" methods of increasing my feelings of happiness, bliss, self esteem, etc. Dark chocolate doesn't seem to achieve this and isn't the "risk" I am seeking. What do you use?

I would like to return to writing groundbreaking posts such as my thoughts about horse poop. Those were good times and they feel too far away now. I took the wrong path and need to retrace my steps. Or, I hope at the bottom of this downward spiral there is something magical, like.. magic tricks. I am becoming incoherent and lazy. Generally good signs, but still it is not good. The only things I feel like writing about are the Red Sox or the exploding Chinese economy, but these things are better left to other people to write about.

On a positive note I believe Molly McBlue is working on another review of something. I don't know the details. Until next time, be safe my dear readers.